Gift of gifts

“O Source of all Good,
What shall I render to You for the Gift of gifts,
Your own dear Son, begotten, not created,
my Redeemer, Proxy, Surety, Substitute,
His self-emptying incomprehensible,
His infinity of love beyond the heart’s grasp.

Herein is wonder of wonders:
He came below to raise me above,
He was born like me that I might become like Him.

Herein is love;
when I cannot rise to Him He draws near on wings of grace,
to raise me to Himself.

Herein is power;
when Deity and humanity were infinitely apart
He united them in indissoluble unity, the uncreated and the created.

Herein is wisdom;
when I was undone, with no will to return to Him,
and no intellect to devise recovery,
He came, God-incarnate, to save me to the uttermost,
as man to die my death,
to shed satisfying blood on my behalf,
to work out a perfect righteousness for me.

O God, take me in spirit to the watchful shepherds,
and enlarge my mind;
let me hear good tidings of great joy,
and hearing, believe, rejoice, praise, adore,
my conscience bathed in an ocean of repose,
my eyes uplifted to a reconciled Father,
place me with ox, donkey, camel, goat,
to look with them upon my Redeemer’s face,
and in Him account myself delivered from sin;
let me with Simeon clasp the new-born Child to my heart,
embrace Him with undying faith,
exulting that He is mine and I am His.

In Him You have given me so much that heaven can give no more.”


-Arthur Bennett, Valley of Vision: Gift of gifts

“One of the great tragedies in life…

… is historically that the Bible gets interpreted by people who are not in love…When I read this, it’s a thing of beauty, but I realize that for most people it’s an imprisonment. It’s a set of scriptures that are restricting and binding because they’re not held in the context of this One who is so wild about us, so extreme in His love for us. It’s so easy to read this and come off with this edge that is hostile and caustic and abrasive towards people—it comes from the hearts of people who are just not in love. Something happens when you read this stuff in the context of your affection for Jesus, and realize that the heartbeat of God is for people. Suddenly that edge disappears and you realize you can’t preach people into change by telling them how bad sin is. There’s gotta be something that gives people hope, something that brings them into encounter with the person you’re actually living in. People in love are infectious! And I pray you would never again for the rest of your life have to sit under the teaching of anyone that isn’t in love, and that the words of your mouth for the rest of your life are words that come from your love for Christ, your absolute wonder for this One.” -Bill Johnson


things just got real

Time for an update! Between my work schedule and project activities, my free time is very limited. However, my goal is to blog once every week and a half. So here goes…

First off, I love my job!! I guess I’ve always assumed that Texas/southern states are the only places where people are actually friendly, but it turns out I was wrong. I have been pleasantly surprised with my coworkers, supervisors, and even the customers. I genuinely look forward to going into work and I’m grateful to work alongside such an awesome group of people.  Work actually is fun.

Two Sundays ago was our first outreach. We decided to split up and go to laundromats around town. Our mindset behind that was: what better place to reach out to people than a place where they’re sitting, waiting, and not busy/on-the-go? My action group (my 4 room-mates and our action group leader) isn’t Santa Cruz navigation-savvy, so we couldn’t find the laundromat and decided to head up to UCSC (University of California Santa Cruz) and talk to students on campus. Well that didn’t end up happening either. On our way to the campus, there was a beautiful looking point that we decided to stop at. We were at a pretty high elevation, because the school is up in the mountainy-hills (I still don’t know what to call them), so we had a great view of the coast, the city, and Monterrey Beach and its mountains in the far distance. There just so happened to be a man and a woman who had also stopped to check out the beautiful scenery, so we all started small talk. God had bigger plans for that conversation, and our “random” encounter with Victor and his girlfriend turned into what I like to call a divine appointment. Me and my roommates were able to share with Victor how the three of us came to know the Lord personally and what it meant to us. It was so cool to see him open up and ask question after question. Towards the end of our conversation, he mentioned that we were “good at what we were doing”….my prayer is that he would look back on that conversation and realize that it was Jesus in us, and nothing about ourselves, and that he would come to know the Lord personally too.

This past Tuesday we had our international dinner. We each received a slip of paper on our beds that told us what country we were. I was Europe. We knew nothing about the international dinner other than the time of it and our assigned country.  My group didn’t know what to expect other than pasta, bread, and other carb-filled things, so team Europe (there were about 8 of us) was really confused when we were served cold lunch meat, cold green beans, and cold potatoes. America, on the other hand, was having a party in the courtyard, listening to songs about America, eating steak, potatoes, asparagus, and dessert.  We were being fed, so we didn’t want to complain, but we didn’t understand why A) we were eating cold ham instead of hot pasta and B) America was already getting asked if they wanted seconds on their steak dinner. The staff came over to Europe’s table and read us a list of rules. One of the rules was that you could only travel to other countries if you had a passport. I was given a white slip of paper that said “passport,” so I went on over to America’s table and asked them what was going on and what their rules were.  My friend responded “we don’t have any rules!” Team Europe got together and brainstormed, and decided that the staff was trying to communicate some message to us with the international dinner, we just didn’t know what the message was. We also noticed that the other 40 students were no where to be seen; America and Europe were the only groups outside eating. We went around knocking on doors and found a big group of students sitting on the floor of one bedroom all eating white rice out of the same pan, and they weren’t allowed to talk much (Africa). Now we knew something was going on, so started looking for the other countries around the motel. We found Russia eating bread and potatoes on the ground. We found China sitting on a tarp sharing a small thing of rice and not allowed to talk at all. Meanwhile, America got the news that they were the only ones eating a steak dinner, so they felt bad and wanted to share their extra steaks with the students in other countries. Then the siren went off, and we all gathered in the courtyard and the staff explained to us what the heck was going on:

The meat represented the Gospel: in America it’s abundant, there are churches on what seems like every corner, but the Gospel is often taken for granted. We get so distracted by our own blessings that we fail to realize how spiritually impoverished other countries are.  Everything seems okay here, so we assume it’s okay everywhere else. Notice America didn’t have any rules at their dinner table, they were able to enjoy their steak freely. They became so distracted by the staff members asking them if they wanted dessert or if they wanted seconds on their steak, that for a while they failed to realize that other countries had no steak, or no meat at all. In Europe, the meat was cold, distasteful, not appealing. It was just there; no one wanted anything to do with it. Sadly this represents the spiritual climate in Europe today. Christianity exists there, and there are lots of churches, but most people are turned off by it and want nothing to do with it. Now comes the devastating part: all of the other countries had no meat at all. This represented the fact that these areas of the world are desperately in need of the Gospel. These countries are in the 1040 window: a region of the eastern hemisphere located between 10 and 40 degrees north of the equator that has least amount of access to the Gospel out of anywhere on the planet. The Gospel isn’t even allowed to be spoken there; the name of Jesus is banned. During our dinner, there were a few students hiding out on the other side of the motel. They were completely out of our sight; they couldn’t see Americans eating meat, and Americans couldn’t see them “starving” with only water. They had no idea that there was a party in the USA. This really opened my eyes to the fact that there are so many people in the world who are hungry…starving…for the Gospel, and they don’t even know what it is they’re hungry for. If only someone could tell them. 

 

How then will they call on him in whom they have not believed? And how are they to believe in him of whom they have never heard? And how are they to hear without someone preaching? And how are they to preach unless they are sent? As it is written, ‘How beautiful are the feet of those who preach the good news!’ Romans 10:14-15

Our second outreach was downtown this past Sunday evening. Downtown has a lot of nice restaurants and shops, so it’s a pretty popular place for locals and tourists. We all went downtown and split up into groups to talk to people. Thankfully, CRU has some awesome resources, such as the “Knowing God Personally” booklet, which my roommate, Kaitlin, and I were able to share with a woman experiencing a lot of brokenness and pain in her life. She was standing alone on the sidewalk, so we walked up to her and introduced ourselves. She seemed very distressed and distracted and she was hard to communicate with, so before we walked off I told her it was nice to meet her and asked her if there was anything I could pray for her about. She immediately broke down in tears and told us her life story. We prayed for her and went through the KGP booklet with her, and she continued to cry and tell us how she’d “never forget this.” One of the coolest parts about our conversation was when she told us about her own encounters with the Lord. She said after losing her father at a young age, she felt Jesus pursuing her in the midst of her pain, so she accepted Him as her savior. So the good news is that she is a believer, but she has been struggling to turn to God in the midst of her hardships. I believe God sat us down next to her that night to remind her that her hope is not anything or anyone in this world; her hope is in the Lord, and that is the one thing that won’t fail her (or you, or me).  If one “random” lady we sat down and talked to was experiencing so much hurt and pain in her life, how many more people out there are experiencing the same thing? That night, I developed a deeper sense of urgency to share what I know with this city. “The harvest is plentiful”…let’s pray that the workers wouldn’t be few. 

In addition to our community outreaches and serving with Twin Lakes Church, a lot of what we’re doing here is co-worker ministry. We have dinners (really good dinners) 4 nights a week at the Peter Pan, and we invite our coworkers to our dinners. At each dinner someone tells their story about how they came to faith in Christ. Lots of our coworkers have been able to come hang out with us, enjoy a free meal, and hear the Gospel. It’s been awesome to see how much favor God has given us with these people

Our first themed party is this Saturday, so we are anticipating lots of  our coworkers to come. Barn themed, baaaby!! Parties at the Pan are a great way for our friends at work to come hang out with us at our summer home and see what we’re all about. I’m looking forward to some southern food and fun!

 Lastly, I’m falling more in love with this place every day. And I’m promising myself I’ll learn how to surf before I leave. :)


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How then will they call on him in whom they have not believed? And how are they to believe in him of whom they have never heard? And how are they to hear without someone preaching? And how are they to preach unless they are sent? As it is written, ‘How beautiful are the feet of those who preach the good news!’

Romans 10:14-15

Greetings from the bay

So far so GREAT! The weather is beautiful, the Peter Pan is as cozy as can be, and Santa Cruz is such a neat town. Very eclectic, even more so than Austin.  I have quickly grown to love it. Even more awesome than the town: these people!! I couldn’t imagine a better group to be on project with. So lucky to live in such a tight-knit community with such an awesome group. 

So far this week we have been getting to know our surroundings, the people, the town, etc. Some orientation and training and a lot of getting to know one another. I’m living in a room with 4 other girls from Oklahoma, Kentucky, North Carolina, and South Carolina. It’s only day 5 and I’m already dreading leaving them at the end of the summer. I can’t imagine how close we will become in 10 weeks. Yesterday, we had our “soul to soul”….we literally sat in our room from 9 AM - 2 PM and told one another our entire life story.  We took any and all masks off and literally spilled our guts about our life: the pretty, the not so pretty, and the downright ugly. I felt like I knew them before, but now I really know them…and they really know me. 

There are 59 students here and about 15 or 20 people on staff. We are constantly with eachother and everyone is quickly getting to know eachother. Believe it or not, my friends from North Carolina and South Carolina have way heavier accents than mine. :) 

My new home for 10 weeks, the Peter Pan (AKA The Pan), is a block away from the beach and the Santa Cruz Beach Boardwalk where I’ll begin working on Saturday. Today was my first day of training for Marini’s. The front of the store is totally open and the ocean breeze is literally on my face while I’m working. It’s AWESOME.  My friend Breanna (who also lives in Austin) and 2 other students from the project will be working with me. I’m looking forward to meeting our new coworkers and building relationships with them as well. Training day 2 is tomorrow!

Yesterday I was assigned to the prayer committee, which we all firmly believe is the backbone to the project. We are praying for God to do huge things in this city and we know that we can’t do it on our own.  Please pray every day that God will work mightily in Santa Cruz and that not just hundreds, but thousands of people will place their trust in Christ this summer. We trust that He can move mountains and are so excited to see Him work in even bigger ways than He has in previous summers.  This project has been going on since 1989 and we have heard so many stories of how projects in the past continue to transform lives today.  James 4:2 says “you have not because you ask not” …so we are dreaming big dreams and asking big things. 

Tonight we had dinner and worship at a vineyard in the mountains/hills about 30 minutes away from Santa Cruz. It was a beautiful place to eat and praise. I’ll post some pictures from our outing.

Our project verse:

“Therefore if there is any encouragement in Christ, if there is any consolation of love, if there is any fellowship of the Spirit, if any affection and compassion, make my joy complete by being of the same mind, maintaining the same love, united in spirit, intent on one purpose.  Do nothing from selfishness or vain conceit, but with humility of mind regard one another as more important than yourselves; do not merely look out for your own personal interest, but also for the interests of others” 

-Phillipians 2:1-4

Thanks again for all of your support and prayers. LOVE YOU ALL!

the Pan at night

the Pan at night

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